New Year, new you eh?
Ending a year seems like we lost something because there
were many memories in it. A year filled of happiness, downs, love, anger, fear
or more.
We just can’t hold on time and pause it while we’re enjoying
something in life. Sometimes, we need to let go, give another day a chance,
live with it and face it with another day with another year.
This year comprises of 365 days-endless days for chances and
hope. We might forget our timeline during our day 14 or day 36 maybe, we just
collect something in particular that we wanted to store in our mind.
My 2015 so far was tough. I can’t technically describe it in
one word. Ten words maybe.
From my 1st day of the year down until my 365th
day, there were really memories worth to remember and to reminisce it some
other day next year or next decade.
Honestly, my whole year was unexpected. They were too
unexpected that I need an enforcer to stop me because I was barking on a wrong
way or I will still be going on it. Or a very strict enforcer that will be
doing his very extraordinary best to catch me on a full time speed to stop me
again because I’m beating the red light and yeah it is against the law.
You know, I was just going on and on without thinking clearly what would be my next step as long as it pleases me or I will be happy. But along this year, unexpected ones came also at its finest. Those moments that you definitely smile and thank God for what He has done to you. Moments that you want to add on your ball of memories and let Joy (from the Inside Out movie) to let it play in your head all over again because she knows that you’ll be truly happy to remember it.
You know, I was just going on and on without thinking clearly what would be my next step as long as it pleases me or I will be happy. But along this year, unexpected ones came also at its finest. Those moments that you definitely smile and thank God for what He has done to you. Moments that you want to add on your ball of memories and let Joy (from the Inside Out movie) to let it play in your head all over again because she knows that you’ll be truly happy to remember it.
What were those memories or things that I wanted to share
with you anyway? Some were too private because I’m not that “too open” to human
being by nature and some were just fair enough that I even posted them on
social media to be known or to be remembered by myself. So yeah, I’m going to
share some.
I joined a Festival Queen competition this year. To be truly
honest with you, I made a covenant to myself that I will join any competition
or any audition every year. Even though I joined once, it still counts on my
covenant. One or two doesn’t matter as long as I’ve competed one! And to be
truly and deeply honest with you, I’m not a good dancer. (huhu this is
terrible, I know) As expected, I lose in this competition. Well, this is
because of some reasons. First, I just told you. Second, my covenant. Third, my
handler wanted me to join, to see if I should battle next year for a Sinulog Festival Queen (you know, the
ones you see on T.V if you don’t go to Abellana to watch it live or during the
street dancing within the duration of the Sinulog week). Fourth, haven’t
practice because as an Architecture student, every week has a deadline and duh!
my dancing skills won’t change though. So much for this Festival Queen because
I feel like I’m degrading myself just because I suck with this cool talent.
My other memory of
this year was around March. The well-known house of the Philippines which is
the Big Brother house was conducting an audition. Luckily, a Cebu audition was
part of it. I wanted to try auditioning with this one for the past audition
years but I don’t know why I haven’t go to one before. I think may be because I
don’t have any companion to go with and this sucks too. (Actually, the reason
is úhmmm my friends are not the type of “I-wanna-go-to-audition” ones or ‘’I-am-definitely-shy-and-you-are-too-confident”)(P.S:
I want to cry with this fact) And now, this year, I had the same kind of
problem, but I still pursue with this goal though. I joined because I wanted to
experience this one, wanted to try my luck (even if 95% of my whole body is
crying that I have no chance at all because my inner mantra says it’s scripted
and the Pinoys mantra as well) .
Along the way, I found new friends. Seen different kinds of people from different parts of the Visayas. To be honest again, I went to the Pacific Mall around 5am haha because I know the line will be too long already and yeaaah when I arrived there, it’s fact super long already. It was in a form of a snake shape kind of line to maximize the space. Around 11am, I am still outside of the mall with more than a hundred of 18 years old and above species (haha). It was definitely hot and I’m sweating. Luckily, I brought a small chair with me. The funny thing was, I was the only one who brought a chair (kiddie chair that can fit inside your backpack) while others were standing or sitting in the air. Many were telling me how smart am I and they haven’t realize that this was coming. Well, I was just thinking in advance though. Okay, I’ll skip with some details because I am being tackless already. Around 12noon, we are already inside the mall. Around 3pm we were still waiting (the waiting sucks) and yes, we were entertained around 5pm already. Luckily, on the first stage, I passed. Maybe because I’m TV-genic hahhaha and yes again, I have a chance to be an actress someday because I conclude already that I look great. (Please don’t react) Around 11pm to 12 midnight, was the second stage? Luckily again, I passed!! I was beyond happy with this. Then around 2am was the third stage. I was just been asked and boom, eight out of ten of us were being evicted. I thought I was going to do some talent because I’m ready with my talent actually.
Along the way, I found new friends. Seen different kinds of people from different parts of the Visayas. To be honest again, I went to the Pacific Mall around 5am haha because I know the line will be too long already and yeaaah when I arrived there, it’s fact super long already. It was in a form of a snake shape kind of line to maximize the space. Around 11am, I am still outside of the mall with more than a hundred of 18 years old and above species (haha). It was definitely hot and I’m sweating. Luckily, I brought a small chair with me. The funny thing was, I was the only one who brought a chair (kiddie chair that can fit inside your backpack) while others were standing or sitting in the air. Many were telling me how smart am I and they haven’t realize that this was coming. Well, I was just thinking in advance though. Okay, I’ll skip with some details because I am being tackless already. Around 12noon, we are already inside the mall. Around 3pm we were still waiting (the waiting sucks) and yes, we were entertained around 5pm already. Luckily, on the first stage, I passed. Maybe because I’m TV-genic hahhaha and yes again, I have a chance to be an actress someday because I conclude already that I look great. (Please don’t react) Around 11pm to 12 midnight, was the second stage? Luckily again, I passed!! I was beyond happy with this. Then around 2am was the third stage. I was just been asked and boom, eight out of ten of us were being evicted. I thought I was going to do some talent because I’m ready with my talent actually.
I think I’ve talked
too long huhu my bad. Didn’t expect this coming. I had more experiences to
share but I think I have to cut the line.
To sum up other
details that I haven’t been shared, I’ve been more devoted with reading books
this year that I have a little amount of savings only. Read around 30 books
this year. I tripped far enough, just around Cebu only. Seen new beaches and
falls. Met new people because all over summer, I engaged myself with a
business, a fashion line to be exact. Been too extremely happy because I passed
a major subject. (that feeling) Cried a lot. Was disappointed at most times.
Never been kinder. Become hungrier and I still didn’t get fat this year. I hope
results comes out, this 2016.
Cheers to us for a
New Year! Have a good one!
xoxo,
Lux ♥
